cat thursday – alley cat

a special addition this week to cat tuesday, cat thursday!

for the past 3 years the Alley Network Project has hosted an adoption event for PAWS during one of the well known “first thursdays” in pioneer square.  last night was the Alley Cat III and it was wonderful!

nord alley - 1st ave s & occidental ave s - and the ever popular kitten kissing booth
nord alley – 1st ave s & occidental ave s – and the ever popular kitten kissing booth

a gorgeous july evening in seattle, the music playing in occidental park, excited squees at the sight of the kittens.  we set up the tent, complete with 6 kittens and 1 very handsome 1 year-old cat, captain boots, who was featured in this week’s cat tuesday post.

captain boots and i hanging out in the alley.
captain boots and i hanging out in the alley.

people strolled through, ooh’d and aah’d, some came in the tent to meet and fall in love with the young purr boxes.  watching people who love animals, sit, relaxed, enjoying the peace that comes from the healing power of animals is amazing.  families with young children, individuals, young and old, with that love in their hearts, that absolute joy of “falling in love” with their new family member, the excitement and happiness that is in their faces.  it warms my heart and brings tears to my eyes, and i’m incredibly thankful to be part of it.

falling in love.
falling in love.

we had the most adoptions last evening than we have had at our prior 2 events.  in total, 4 kittens found their forever families, and some very special people are experiencing the newness, adventures and joys of their adoptions.  i’ve said it many times, animals are therapeutic, they have healed me in so many ways, and i know they do so for so many others.

giving bison a good-bye kiss before he heads to his new home.
giving bison a good-bye kiss before he heads to his new home.

here’s to love tiny ones!  you’re in loving homes, hands and hearts today.

kitten duo going to their new home.
kitten duo going to their new home.
bison and his new mom.  you're in good hands little one.
bison and his new mom. you’re in good hands little one.
clover and her new family, she'll be joining another little one that this family had just recently adopted at cat city.
clover and her new family, she’ll be joining another little one that this family had just recently adopted at cat city.

and thank you to david at pioneer pet feed & supply, for his support, amazing basket of goodies for our raffle prize, visit him at his shop and meet his amazing shop cats, ivar & vito!

awesome raffle prize from pioneer pet feed & supply
awesome raffle prize from pioneer pet feed & supply

and a big thank you to Steph and my fellow volunteers!

pixie and one of my fellow volunteers.
pixie and one of my fellow volunteers.

cat tuesdays

for me, animals are healing.  in late 2010, as part of my healing process, i searched for animal shelters where i could volunteer my time, and, in turn, heal in the presence of animals.  my search brought me to PAWS  PAWS is an amazing organization, and i am so grateful to be part of it.  i started off as a fill-in dog walker and even brushed a great pyrenees for 3 hours one day.  i wasn’t asked to, but me and the pup were enjoying our time together and he looked quite dapper afterwards (he was adopted by a family later that day).

my regular shift, which i have had every tuesday since 2011 is at PAWS Cat City in the university district of seattle.  i’ve combined my love of animals and photography into something i can give back, each tuesday, i help with the care, socialization and adoptions of the cats in our colonies and, i also take photos of the cats available for adoption, these photos are used on their profiles found on the PAWS website as well as Petfinder.org

a good photo can make all the difference for the animals.  a photo can start the process of someone coming into to visit PAWS, the loving face and eyes of a cute calico, tabby, tortie, torbie, etc etc etc, can grab hold of the heartstrings and bring you in to see them.

every tuesday for me is “kitty cat tuesday” and so i decided to share with you some of the very precious animals that come through our doors and await their loving forever home.

i present to you, CAT TUESDAYS

say hello to dusty – the amazing one-eyed handsome man … stay tuned for more precious felines!

as of this post, this sweet man is still available for adoption

http://www.petango.com/Adopt/Cat-Domestic-Longhair-Mix-19923432

dusty
dusty is a one-eyed handsome fella who gave me full face headbutts as his thanks for my brushing him.

armor

you may not see it, but it’s there.

my armor.

a protection, worn especially heavy over my heart.

there is damage done that can never be reversed, but there is much left to give and share with those dear to me.

trust.  it takes longer now than it ever did before.

i feel too much for this world.  it feels as though i was born for another time, another place.  a kinder, more loving world.

there is goodness in so many, and i feel connected to it, to them, often times, it’s immediate.  then, there are those, that, for no reason known to me, judge (blindly).

then there is the factor of self, the armor doesn’t always protect the body and mind from itself.

there are people in this world that do not operate the way that i do.  i know this.  i’ve become more aware as the years pass.   pearl s. buck put it quite well:

“…a human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive. … a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death…”

those that understand, will understand.  (sympathy)  those that don’t, but do care, will try to comfort (empathy)  and there are those that do not understand, do not try to understand, and make you feel like less of a person because of how you are.

my world became smaller.  not the “walls closing in on me” smaller.  a smaller group of those that i let in to my heart.  i have learned over the years that i can push myself and pretend, put the happy face on and act like things don’t affect me like they do.  but that is on the outside, and, on the inside, i’m crumbling.  so, i try, to find the balance of knowing that there are days that you have to push yourself, because, you just have to for your own good.  and then, there are days that you must allow yourself to be.

depression wreaks havoc on the soul.  up and down, good and evil.  the exhaustion from the ever present “not good enough, never good enough, don’t make a mistake, can’t make a mistake, everything must be perfect, don’t upset anyone, be perfect, do perfect, say perfect, always, no room for failure”

and so, my armor.  to protect, for the heart can only take so much.

the pain and hurt has made me more aware, more aware of what i never want to feel.  it still hurts when i feel the sting and makes me want to run and hide.  i’m not here to say how to fix everything and feel wonderful for ever and ever.  it’s never going to happen.  but, i try to surround myself with those that i can trust, let in and love.

my armor is there, always, but my heart is willing to love.