i have been thinking about a return to sharing my writing, it’s been years.
the other night, a dear soul asked me a thoughtful question, and, with that prompt, the words flowed out of me.
a theme kept repeating in that flow, safety.
i logged into my blog for the first in many years, clicking on drafts, the first was, surprisingly, but not, an entry with the title ‘safe’.
i sat and read the words and felt the universe around me, “remember these words?”
the following words were written before a huge transformational period in my life, and are so very telling of the path i did not know i would be walking several years later.
in honor of myself, my path, my evolution,
i share these words written in 2017
for a long time i’ve found myself saying, “it takes me a long time to trust people”. lately, i’ve found myself thinking about this and what it really means for me, and i’ve realized it’s more about feeling safe, emotionally safe.
when we feel emotionally safe,
we feel free to be ourselves, without fear of judgment,
we feel loved without condition.
emotional safety, it’s soothing, it’s a soft blanket wrapped around your soul, it embraces you as your heart and mind let out a sigh of relief that you don’t have to worry, all you have to do is, be.
it’s a place where i trust that no one is looking at me and judging me for all the things that go on inside my brain, for all the things i struggle to be free from. safe, to be me, and, that, they actually love me, for me. i can talk, even when it doesn’t always make sense, and they listen. they care, even if they don’t understand the why of how i’m feeling.
going back to the definition of what emotionally safe is helps me to define and identify the opposite, feeling emotionally unsafe – “fear to be ourselves, fear of being judged, the fear of not fulfilling the conditions or being good enough to receive love”. my journey has provided me with the wisdom of what unsafe feels like for me, including people and situations that make me feel emotionally unsafe.
i know i’m an emotional being, i know i feel a lot, i know things affect me, maybe more than many, and i’m learning how, who i am, all i am, is me, and that emotional safety is really important for me to have in all of my human relationships.
i try to be this person to others. one of my many mantras is, “you are not alone”, it has always been important that no one ever feel alone. that no one ever feel like that they don’t have a place to seek comfort, a safe place, a sanctuary. no matter what, you should always know you have a place to go where you feel loved and safe.
love heals hearts 